I have endured a lot of personal pain and struggles in the past. I do not usually like to talk about how tough it was and I have stoically held my head up high, plodding from one day into the next. The world could try
to change me but I held on to my own beliefs because it should be ME changing the world and not the other way around. It has been a long 40-year marriage (most of those years were constant struggles with a life partner who is indifferent to all my challenges and struggles as most narcissists are, only thinking of their own comfort and pleasures) However, it is INDEED time to move on to the next chapter of my life!
to change me but I held on to my own beliefs because it should be ME changing the world and not the other way around. It has been a long 40-year marriage (most of those years were constant struggles with a life partner who is indifferent to all my challenges and struggles as most narcissists are, only thinking of their own comfort and pleasures) However, it is INDEED time to move on to the next chapter of my life! There comes a day, somewhere in the middle of every woman’s life, when Mother Nature herself stands behind us and wrap her arms around our shoulders, whispering…
“It’s time.”
“You have taken enough now. It’s time to stop growing up, stop growing older, and start growing wiser – and wilder.”
There are adventures still waiting for you and this time, you will enjoy them with the vision of wisdom and the companionship of hindsight, and you will really let go.
It’s time to stop the madness of comparison and the ridicule of schedule and conformity and start experiencing the joys that a life, free of containment and guilt, can bring.”
She will shake your shoulders gently and remind you that you have done your bit. You have given too much, cared too much, you have suffered too much.
You have bought the book as it were and worn the t-shirt. Worse, you have worn the chains and carried the weight of a burden far too heavy for your shoulders.
“It’s time.” she will say.
“Let it go, really let it go, and feel the freedom of the fresh, clean spaces within you. Fill them with discovery, love, and laughter. Fill yourself so full you will no longer fear what is ahead and instead, you will greet each day with the excitement of a child.”
She will remind you that if you choose to stop caring what other people think of you and instead care what you think of yourself, that you will experience a new era of your life you never dreamed possible.
“It’s time.” she will say…
“To write the ending, or new beginning, of your own story.”
Not right after turning a ripe old age of 60, did I realize how sterile my 40-year marriage was until I was awakened by a good friend who asked me “Why are you still in your gilded cage, hmmm?” “Are you afraid of what people will say about you if you walk away?” “Why are you still wasting the rest of your life with someone who does not value you nor seem to care or love you?” Well, to say the least, that got me thinking the whole of one year and a half!!
Yes, she is ABSOLUTELY RIGHT. Why am I still in this ‘gilded cage?’ so full of unfilled dreams and ambitions? I am certain that I will be able to find love if I am not successful in this relationship. There must be some good men out there because I had one experience which piqued me.
Who can tell what tomorrow will bring? Life is a mystery that only God knows and it is always in His Time.
#timefornewbeginnings #timeforchange
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